Tuesday, 29 January 2013

Blog For Mental Health 2013



"I pledge my commitment to the Blog For Mental Health 2013 Project.  I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others.  By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health.  I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma"

I was honoured to be asked to pledge to Blog For Mental Health 2013 by Ruby Tuesday.

I was first diagnosed with depression when I was 19.  I took antidepressants for 6 months and I thought I was cured.  How young and naive was I please?  Since then I have suffered on/off  with depression, but it wasn't until last year when it came back with a vengeance and nearly killed me.  I was sexually abused as a child and emotionally abused by my parents and several partners I've been with.  I hated my job, realised I was gay and lost the only stable thing in my life my nana, who was my world.  I was a social worker and thought I knew how to deal with depression but my world came crashing down before my eyes.  I started drinking as often as possible mainly out of loneliness and to stop the pain.  Then I started abusing painkillers as I wanted to get high so I wouldn't feel anything.  I started self harming too, cutting, burning, pouring the kettle over me, things I never dreamt I would do.  The social worker me was screaming at myself watching me self destruct but it was the only thing which I thought was making me feel better.  Then last march I took a near fatal overdose and swore that I would change my life because I had been given a chance.  So slowly with only the help of medication and a CPN for a few weeks I started to focus on 'recovery'.  If it wasn't for my girlfriend I don't think I would be the person I am now.  She made me bathe, helped me to start leaving the house again, made me eat and was there for me in general when a lot of people weren't.  I know I'll never be 'cured' but each day I can feel myself getting stronger.  I want to raise as much awareness as possible because stigma is still such a huge problem all over the world and education on mental health is essential for any progress to be made!

The 5 fellow bloggers I am pledging have been an inspiration, motivation and most importantly a friend when I needed one most.  They all raise mental health awareness whilst kicking their own illness butts!

They are:

The Depressed Moose

The Real Supermum

Healing From BPD

Bipolarlainey

Kat Galaxy

Click here to see the Blog For Mental Health 2013 Official Blogroll page!